God owes me nothing!

Who are we to think that God owes us something? The past month has been difficult for me. This is not how this chapter in my life is supposed to end. I have experienced God's great Love and freedom, but I have felt so much pain and heartache. And I found myself coming before God saying, "I deserve better than this!" or "I'm owed this!" declaring that I have ownership of something. But we are not owed anything!!! We have no right to anything because it's all God's! And God owes us nothing, rather we owe God everything, but we so quickly forget this fact. I'm a sinner, with a debt towards God. He has granted me caretaker of so many of His wonderful things, and although I fail time and time again to honor Him with my everything, He still gives me more. As it says in Ecclesiastes, "He has made everything beautiful in its time." Everything is a gift from God and it is beautiful in it's time. I struggle to let go of some of these gifts, claiming ownership of them and completely forgetting that it was a gift, not a right of mine, but something that God had blessed me with. Let us not forget the fact that God does not owe us anything.

The Great One

Through all the pain and all the shame,
No matter what I have done,
I can call upon your name
And know that you will come.
Though many times I would forget you
And believe that my way was better,
You still remembered me and called me son.
O, your great love for me,
How perfect and pure,
No man can fathom it!

You are the greatest friend,
You are the perfect father,
You are the majestic creator,
You are the great physician,
You are the strongest fortress,
You are the alpha and omega,
You are Jehovah Jireh,
And I am yours!